As a guy who’s half European and half Arabian, no I don’t feel comfortable expressing emotions or feelings. Each time I have done that, I get shit for it back.

“Man up”, “that’s just life” and “I know you’ll push through it”. Is what I hear. They rather have me be aggressive than to be emotional more often than not. While I’m trying to get rid of my anger issues.

So instead of expressing emotions, I just put it all in a diary. Never thought I’d be using one but it truly helps.

I’m still living with parents due to circumstances (houses are immensely expensive, one of them have a lot of health issues and thus want to help out etc). Anyway, when I was a teenager my father would definitely go through my stuff in my room. He’s unfortunately very controlling.

Once I went on a trip with a school I was in back then, he would check and try to control what I do with the money I had (and used). It is that my mother messaged me and told me to better use cash instead of the bank (I listened to her). Good thing she told me because if not, there would be a huge fight (yes, actual fact because he’s agressive) due to the fact I used to smoke back then (I quit for years already thankfully). Privacy does not exist in my father’s dictonary. Though nowadays, it looks as if he does not care (but you know, appearances can be deceiving).

I would just suggest using Massgrave and never pay a dime to Microsoft.

I would say for myself;

• Real-Debrid (RD).
• VPN (if RD isn’t enough).
• DayOne Diary.

Oh, I see! Would like to retire early but highly doubt it would be possible. But yeah, I had been thinking about that too but haven’t set goals yet for it.

Though, I’m older than you think. My life is just a lot different than the usual path people go. Studied long* and a lot (have pretty much seen almost every education level. From lowest, middle to higher education) and that kind of delayed the rest of my life stuff.

Macbooks particularly are one of the stupidest shit someone can burn money on, the extreme high price and low performance make apple computers literally the worse in the market.

I understand that you are not a fan of Apple (at least their MacBooks). However, personally, I really like their products. MacBooks are known for high quality build, long battery life and ‘it just works’. I agree the pricing is too much and can be called absurd with the upgrade pricing.

For the price of a powerful computer with RTX and all, you get an useless office computer where the keyboard is even too shit to do any office work on it

This seems more a personal opinion than truth. Their keyboards are more often than not highly praised by users.

Honestly, I rather have people answer the actual question than getting their opinions on the Apple products. If I wanted opinions on the product itself, I would’ve made a different post with different questions and title.

Anyway, I appreciate your explanation regarding the spending on audio gear, computers and obsolete issue.

I don’t have enough political knowledge but, isn’t “comrade” usually related to communism?

There is no cure to being stingy

As English is not my native language, I’m not sure what this means. However, the way it’s written, it seems to be meant as in insult? If that is the case, I’m at least glad you might not have had a bit of financial struggle when growing up. But that does shows your ignorance to the situation.

How much money is going out (bills, food, subscriptions, other recurring expenses)? How much are you putting towards short and long term savings each month?

So here’s the thing, I barely have any actual fixed costs besides the ones I set up for myself (in the original post) and I help my parents. I still live with parents because getting an apartment is just really tough these days and one of my parents have certain health problems which worries me and thus sticking to home a bit longer.

As for subscriptions, I just have one which costs me €32/yearly (Real-Debrid). Food costs changes per week but overall I would estimate €80-85 a month.

With that first and last paragraph, in addition to your question, it sounds like you don’t have the confidence to decide this purchase on your own.

I hate how true this is, honestly. It kind of hit home. Don’t want to get to specific in details but yeah, I often get the approve of parents because of eh, things that happened in the past.

I appreciate your comment because it gave me insight on myself and the fact that it is not just ‘‘can’t decide whether…’’.

First, it is better for you that your natural instinct as you’ve gotten wealthier is to still maintain your cheap habits. It is better for your finances to spend under your means than over them.

This is so true, especially in today’s era where everything gets more and more expensive.

Your time has value now, so you should consider the time value when making financial decisions. You should also look at things like total life cycle cost; a MacBook is generally well built and is on the higher end of life.

I’m pretty certain if I get a MacBook it will last at least 6-7 years (especially because I don’t think, I will fiddle with the system as much as I do on Windows).

I would also start to set financial goals. If you have an idea of what you want financially in your life, it can help you decide if you have the money to splurge on some essentials.

I did this already, luckily. The moment I got my job, I set goals: driver license, car and then saving up for an apartment.

will I use this enough to justify the cost?

This is a bit what worries me. Worried I do use it initially a lot and eventually slowly stop using it much but there’s also a chance it will entirely replace the normal laptop I use (when I work from home and not in my room). I mainly want the MacBook because, I have always wanted one but could never really afford one myself and did not want to ask my parenst back in the day.

…That’s enough Lemmy for today.

I don’t necessarily hate Christmas but I truly don’t like all the forced obligations that come with it.

• Forced to socialize with people you barely see or hear from.
• Forced to be present, socializing and fake laughing at Christmas events (work, family and acquaintances).
• There’s always one person that thinks the whole universe is about them.
• When you are silent, there’s apparently something wrong. You must have fun at Christmas events!

Personally, not really fond of socializing to be honest. I’m an introvert, it’s fine to socialize for an hour but an entire day of forced socializing is a disaster. Don’t like it.

Could write a day about this but, I suppose this sums it up.

I have been reading a lot of fiction lately.

Same, read a lot of fiction too. However, my problem is; the fiction is often kind of dystopia (e.g; 1984 and The Book Thief).

Personally, recently started to try to have a positive diary. Writing down anything that I find positive and grateful in life for. It might sound weird or ridiculous but it does help.

There’s a quote I cherish a lot from a book;

‘’Never underestimate the big importance of small things, you must always remember that’’ - Matt Haig, The Midnight Library.

Mainly for iPhone/ IOS but if it is possible to have it synch with Windows (PC) that would be a major advantage.

Holy shit the hate E33 is getting is completely ridiculous, as Reddit does. Whether you go to the Silksong, KCD2, Death Stranding, Dispatch, Arc Raiders, or any other games subreddit that was nominated for any award about half the comments saying E33 is trash, overhyped, and their game deserved to win instead.

This is why I don’t care anymore about what other people think and don’t check the communities of games. I just hope the game, I like the most wins. If it happens, great! If it does not, sad but that’s okay. That’s life.

I just don’t get why they need to shit on other people and the games they like just because their game didn’t win.

Because it is the internet and nowadays people only think about themselves. “I like this game, I want and need this game to win”. The internet allows people to be sort of anonymous and that brings the worst out of people (because more often than not, there’s no consequences of the actions when it is written anonymously).

Poor Disney, we are sad for you /s. It sucks when the same things happens to you, right?

It just amazes me how to doing the Nazi salute, uniforms and speech’s are entirely okay now. However, being against it gets you banned.

The world has gone a full circle and we are back to the days were fascism, hatred and all that is okay. Unfortunately.

No, not really. Personally, think that friendships are very shallow these days. Only a handful of people or even less can be truly called friends that would be there for you when you genuinely them.

I’ve seen countless of times where people with several friends (or a lot) are left in the dust after two people in the friendships have a conflict or they are friends “only in the fun times”. This was also before the internet took off.