Sounds pretty rough! Sorry to hear that
In my experience, grief comes in waves, and they slowly diffuse and get weaker and further apart. So it will slow at some point, and then it will come back again, but less intense, and that will repeat until it fades into the background of your mind… Sorry I can’t suggest a timeframe, that’s too context dependant.
Something else I’ve found useful is listening to podcasts about grief - there are quite a few of them, and the wisdom is pretty transferrable, and it has that good vibe of feeling like there are others out there who get it.










Sorry, I don’t have any specific reccs, last time I listen to grief related stuff was years ago. There’s a shitload though, there’s probably some a best-list somewhere on the 'net.